long time no see.

Hmm.
2007 was horrible. Mother and myself had a horrific year, I was concidering being home-schooled, that's how shit it was.
2008 was of of my favourites. Met all of these new people that I am still friends with. My social group sored, and there was this one person who will stay in my heart always, and forever.
2009. I lost love, found it again. Lost then found it, then lost it. Lost a firend, made a few. Then lost most of them. Broke my own heart and about 4 phones.
2010. I can already tell it's going to continue to be bad, follow through and end badly.

Although last year changed me, probably for the worst, I'd do it all over again. I'd change everything I did, show my love for people more and say things that I hadn't. Last year was just a big regret; I regret it all. Somethings I'd do over but not change anything about it, just relive that special moment. I had many special moments, and I wish they had continute into this year. This time last year I was probably one of the most luckiest and happiest girls out. I'd wanted nothing more, and nothing less than what I had at that point in time. People that loved me, and I did them. Now I have nothing. No matter how many times people try their very bext to convince me that nothing about my life is bad, of course I'm going back there. You can't pull me out of this hole. Maybe I don't want to exit this hole. I need a new life, with new people knowing the real me and trying to discover it, with me. Because right now I have no clue who I am. I'm not ready to meet myself; I'm scared I wont like her, and neither will you.